a gloomy day

assalamualaikum

ramai sangat kawan aku yang demam. aku sedih tengok diorang macam ni. sedih sangat.

dah bawak pegi jumpa doctor. we were hoping for antibiotics, tapi doctor cakap, "let her body fight against it naturally". kepala hotak kau doctor.! kawan aku dah nak separuh mati ni. doctor malaysia lagi bagus. camtu aku pon boleh jadi doctor. kalau aku jadi doctor, aku dah bagi injection, bagi antibiotic and masukkan glucose dalam badan. tak boleh ke macam ni.?

panadol dah telan berapa papan. dah mandi air sejuk. jelum. tepek air asam jawa. all those petua-petua yang boleh hilangkan demam panas. i don't know what else should i do. i feel so helpless.

aku rasa sedih dan helpless sangat bila:

• aku tengok kau menggigil kesejukan
• kau muntah-muntah
• kau batuk-batuk macam nak keluar anak tekak
• nak bangun tak larat

when i can't do nothing, i feel that i'm the worst friend ever. please tell me, what can i do for you. if you want me to stay up take care of you, i will. anything to make you feel better.  i want to cry, but i can't in front of you. sob3.

calling my parents asking what should i do. how i wish they are here with me.

ya allah, aku tahu kau datangkan penyakit sebagai penawar dari dosamu. kau kuatkanlah semangat sahabatku, ya allah. bantulah dia. hanya kepadamu aku berserah.

my beloved friends yang still sihat. sila jaga diri elok-elok. exam  lagi 15 hari je. get well soon, my dear. =(

p/s: the day is bright, but inside, it feels so cold...