oh, me.!

assalamualaikum

i'm not sure how to start this. i'm not an emotional person. always happy and grateful with my life. i do have lots of problems but i know how to solve it by myself. bila sedih, pujuk diri sendiri. bila menangis, pujuk diri sendiri, bila marah, pujuk diri sendiri. bila kecil hati, pujuk diri sendiri. i just know how to pujuk diri sendiri. thats why i rarely tell anyone about my problems. pathetic ke macam ni.? 

"the awkward moment when someone's crying and you're just sitting there awkwardly like - 'wanna hug.?'"

i'm a bad friend. seriously, tak tahu macam mana nak pujuk orang yang tengah menangis. i'll just sit there awkwardly. i don't know what to do. aaaaaa... i feel guilty and i feel bad. rasa nak lempang diri sendiri laju-laju. i didn't mean to. i do care for you but i don't know how to react. so, takkan rasa kecik hati if i'm going to be the last person to know about you. my bad. my bad. my bad. *a big sigh* =.='

p/s: teringin nak ada orang cakap, "this is not the right way. i have to leave you because of allah." i'll leave with a big relieve and a big smile. please make this into a reality. i hope that you will understand. :)

p/s: i guess i'm having this pre-pms syndrome. screw me.! sebenarnya, banyak lagi benda nak ditaip, tapi tak dapat nak diluahkan. pujuk diri sendiri je la.